Thank you rain

My craving this morning for a Wendy's trip was very strong. I had to keep a steady stream of encouraging talk running through my head not to go over there.

Ireland.

Wedding Dress.

Hawai'i.

Wendys!!

I popped a piece of gum. With one hour until lunch I had to convince myself it wasn't worth it.

Ireland.

Wedding Dress.

Hawai'i.

I bravely went to lunch in our lunchroom, eating the healthy things I had prepared. Then I tried to calmly sit to read my book. But I couldn't get Wendy's cookie dough frosty out of my head. It was calling me. I tried desperately not to think about it.

Finally I just didn't have the willpower anymore. I'd battled with myself for 3 hours. As I was getting nearer to the door I realized that it was pouring rain outside. I'd get soaking wet. It'd suck so much to have to dry out at my desk. I didn't go.

I feel bad that my will power wasn't keeping me back. I should be stronger than that, ugh pathetic. And if struggling through all that wasn't bad enough - as I got back to my desk feeling that it was over & that I'd made it through my lunch "opportunity", a group of co-workers were headed out to lunch ... "We are headed to Wendy's, can we bring you back a Frosty?"

OMFG!! NO!!

I smiled politely and said "No thank you, I'm really full from my lunch".

And now, please let it be over.